I spent years in the semi-cultish transformational industry. There, it’s all about being on a PATH. Upward trajectory in your life circumstances and the way you handle them is an implied demand.
Yet still, I’ve watched myself flounder and fail in the same exact way, under eerily matching circumstances, over and over again. Don’t seem to be getting anywhere in a hurry in this particular lifetime.
Then last night at Urban Dharma, some random asked the question I didn’t even know how to articulate. In so many words: “Why oh why oh why the hell oh why?”
Vinny Ferraro replied, with characteristic candid aplomb: “Because you, my friend, are in the process of getting a PhD in stuck behavior.”
A lightbulb.
Now I know—I am not just wallowing in pointless, painfully aware circles. I’m actually becoming an expert in the art of being in a rut! Why not enjoy the process?
From now on, I pledge to notice with bemused satisfaction my complete lack of spiritual growth, the hypocrisy of my behavior, and the poetic nuances to my various feelings of failure, patheticness, lost dreams and loserdom.
It’s what I’ve got. I shall own it with fervor.
i think once you wallow in the soil of your patheticness long enough a sprout will rise up and seek the sun. you might get thinned out like the rest of us bad seeds. then your fine cause you can go back into pathetic revelment of what you think to be bad. you are beautiful enjoy yourself