The ‘eating my feelings’ category

The Reckoning Week 52: What Kind of Dog Are You

March 11th, 2021

Phoebe asked me what kind of a dog I am. I am not really a dog person, so I didn’t have a prepared answer for this. I deflected: “Ask your dad what kind of dog he thinks I am.”

This is a great test of a marriage, by the way. You should try it.

At first, he said “border collie,” knowing I have a soft spot for that breed. But I saw right through this. “You mean those sweet-natured, agreeable little softies that love to be bossed around? Really??” He had to admit that was a pretty far fetched comparison. Instead, he said:

“How about afghan hound.”

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Yes. I’ll take that. 

What kind of dog suffers from analysis paralysis, though? That’s the kind of dog I am. The kind of dog that is super sick of making life-or-death decisions at every minute of every day. The kind of dog that just wants to have one single day of not making any decisions whatsoever. What kind of dog is that?

In the middle of trying to figure out where we are going to live in a few months, with our lease ending and no options in sight, suddenly, there’s been an awakening around me to the looming possibilities of summer camp actually happening this year. The chatter got stronger and stronger until I felt compelled under duress of anxiety to create my annual super summer camp spreadsheet from hell, which helps me compare all the options in a phantasmagoric maelstrom of overwhelm. (Brattleboro-area moms, if this is a fun pastime for you as well, know that I made the spreadsheet public this year so others could benefit from my neurosis.)

There are so many moving parts to this summer camp decision. Where will we be living? Where will my kids be going to school in the fall? What about COVID? Will everyone be vaccinated? Where are their friends going? Which camps give me the most likelihood of being able to work as much as possible without going insane? Would they be better off at the same camp all summer or sampling from a smorgasbord of camps? Do masks factor into this at all?

This is what you call a first-world problem. I am well aware. I’m surprised if you’re even still reading, frankly.

Back to what kind of dog I am. I am not a dog, obviously. Dogs are chill and laid back and subservient and happy with whatever they get. I am a cat. 

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What I’m reading:

Wintering: A Novel of Sylvia Plath 

What I’m eating: 

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Fancy little vegan adaptogenic cheesecake from Akasha in Putney

What I’m working on: 

For SaverLife: The Third Stimulus Check: Who Gets It and How To Claim It

For SaverLife: What’s in the Third Stimulus Bill Other than Checks?

For Confluent: Not All Kafka Services Are Created Equal: Confluent Cloud vs. Amazon MSK

For Confluent: Humana Uses Event Streaming to Improve Real-Time Interoperability at the Point of Care

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